I wonder

If you would be proud

if you would have done things differently

had you seen their sad eyes

would have  you  stayed longer.if you had the choice.

and made things right or at least tried.

I wonder if you ever found peace or ever desired it.

Or are these hopeless thoughts as your spirit is gone.

or is it? Or is it you who keeps me

I wonder if it is you I feel

maybe it is your way of making right or

my way of it making sense

I wonder if you were here, would I be as good

or would I be just as bad.

I wonder if its you who saved me.

or if its you who tempts me

I wonder if I will ever be able to stop

I wonder if you would have shown me how.

....or maybe it was you who made it start

He said it all happened just as it should have

and he was glad of that...but no one believed him

and he didn't believe it either.

and that's why now he is gone too.

and I wonder if he regrets or would do things differently,

or ever found peace or ever desired it.